A salute to parents

I dedicate this post to all parents. I am truly amazed at the time, patience and commitment that parents have.

I am surfing the net now and at the same time i have my niece playing the laptop that I am using. She is pressing the screen and even tried to press the keyboard.

I have a number of nieces and nephews cos I come from a big family. I am closest to four of them cos I always visit their mothers and this creates a bond between me and them. there are times whn my cousins ask my assistance when it comes to their children. More often than not am willing to offer my help.

The thing is this: If you ask me to look after them for an hour or two, I am willing but to look after them for almost the rest of my life...??

Sometimes I wonder what is t that made people decide to have children. I mean it cannot come instantly..Or can it?? At the age of 22, I stll cannot see myself having children. When I see my nieces crying they are times when I really don't know what to do..I remeber once when I was at my bf's house and his niece and nephew started crying we actually left the house (their parents are at home in case some of you star worrying). They are not my kids so I can just walk out.

So I am truly and honestly amazed of all parents in the world. It really is a big decision to rase a child. There are so many things to thing about when it comes to a child. To me if you decide to be a parent, you must be really brave. You have all the time, patience and commtment that I can't imagine. I really salute all parents...including mine...

The thing with staring...

Its been a long, long time since I took public transport. For the past five years, I have been travelling by car. When I returned to Singapore, I went back to taking public transport. I noticed one obvious thing. Poeple stare at each other.

I cam acroos an article before on this issue. It was written by a non- Asian who made the observation that this behaviour of staring at strangers is apparent in the Asian countries especially Singapore. One of the reasons that she said to be the cause of this culture is that fact that we Asians are not confident with ourselves. Thus we tend to stare at people to see whtether the girl across the aisle is prettier than us or whether she is wearing something nicer that us.

Hence according to this writer if we are confident with ourselves we will not be staring and analysing strangers. I don't know but maybe this may be true.

For me I do tend to look at strangers but it is not because I want to compare myself with others. It is just that some times some peoples wear nice things. So I basicaly admire how they look and what they are wearing and if possible learn a thing or two about dressing up. There is no hidden agendas..And I don't stare at people for hours. I would just take a glance and move on.

But I don't deny that being stared by people is uncomfortable..

Hello Singapore... Oh Boy.. I really miss this place. Its been 5 years..Now I'm back here..

I went for a job inteview this afternoon. I will now apologise to all interviwers for the misconception I had on all of you... I always though they will be very fierce with a no nonsence attitude. Who would thought that the interviewer will be sweet lady. But I would have to say that it was a good experience.

I have a problem here. Initially when I got the offer for this job
I din realise the company I would working with. Its a US multinational company with business all over the world especially in Asia. Unfortunately, it is a contract but it would be a very good exposure. I would accept it even though it is for three to six months.

Tomorrow I'm going for another interview. I really like this job..So how now..Im not sure if I'l pass tomorrow's interview...Haiz...

I'm so hungry rite now..My aunt's maid is frying some noodles but I'l be having steamboat at my house...Y is my mom preparing steamboat? Simply because I took my family out for father's day dinner at a steamboat restaurant. It was simply amazing..

I finally stopped work on Wednesday. So I was at home the whole day doing small, small things like the laundry, cooking and cleaning my books and notes..

At that point I realised that while I sometimes complain about my work, I actually like to work. I suppose if I were to like a particular job, I'll be able to stick to it and very happy. I can't wait to find another job... Whenever I worked, I felt productive. For the past month at work, there isn't much to do actually. I merely went to work and did some admin work and most of the time I surf the net. Yet somehow, I felt productive. Seriously, I do not know how I am going to handle not working for the next few weeks.. There;s a job waiting for me at the end of the month but its just the normal admin work. I haven't decided whether I want to accept the job.. Whatever lah...
Anyway, I will not be blogging as often because I'll be in Singapore and in Singapore I do not have as much access to the net as I do here. I've to think of ways to find access.. Maybe I'll go to my aunts' place and use their net...

My ex colleagues are actually taking me out for dinner tonight. Unfortunately, I just receivd a call from one of them who said that she can't make it cos she will be celebrating father's day today and she has to get a gift for him. Its not even her father but her father in law. Whatever lah...

I don't know whether I mentioned this before but there are a number of horrible people in my ex workplace..They are the ones who have been making the lives of the staffs here miserable. I heard that they fought among themselves today.. It was the happiest news that I heard today. Everyone was happy.

By the way, two of them are having an affair although they both have families... They thought they can keep it from us...

Work..and more wrok...

I've finally made up my mind to quit and my last day will be this Wednesday. I am afraid no doubt that I may not be able to find job which I can adapt to like my present one. Yet, I think I am making a smart move by changing my job for I think I need the exposure especially since I am very young.

So my plan now would be to just get whatever job which can sustain me financially while I concentrate on my LLM. I might reconsider doing it full time since I have all the time in the world.

I spoke to my boyfriend yesterday and he told me to do another paper after completing my LLM. I thought of doing the ICSA course. My mom really wants me to be lawyer but I am seriously not ready to be one. I've seen many horrifying experiences of other lawyers that made me not go that path. Maybe one day I'll be a lawyer but I'll wait for my boyfriend to open up his own firm so that I can join him.

Anyway enough of my job.. I'm quite sick of speaking of it...By the way, my font has changed back to the original one. I've no idea what and how it happened...

I just wrote that I no longer want to talk about work but I can't help it because I am going to say something about one of my colleagues (MG). MG was upset with me and one of the seniors. She claimed that she does not belong to the college and the previous colleagues were all friendly. She made this comment all because we went for breakfast and lunch without asking her to come along.

Okay..Maybe its partly my fault for not asking her. But I used to ask her out. She declined to follow on the basis that she had a lot of work. Now she claimed to be free. How an I suppose to know that she is free?Further most of the time, I don't plan to go for lunch. Last Friday we went for lunch in a big group of six and went in two cars. We didn't plan it. It was a situation of one person inviting another and that other invites another. That was how the group for big. Plus she was on at work when we decided to go.

Honestly, I didn't expect this from her. Sometimes its funny...

I've one more story about her before I end my entry. We went out the other day and she drove her manual car. We went to a restaurant which was situated on a steep slope. Guess what she did? She drove up the steep slope in third gear. The engine of course switched off when we were in the course of going up the slope. The handbreak did not help to keep the car stationery and the car was reversing into the main road where cars are coming at full speed. It was a scary incident but it was seriously hilarious. I've never encountered such an incident in my life. We were laughing while trying to get the car up the slope and of course it was embarrassing because cars that pass by actually hooted and some guys were even laughing at us...

Changes..

I have a question..How did my font size change?? I didn't change it. When I checked my blog today the size changed..What did I do???How do I change it back....???

I received a comment about my blog. It was said that my shorthand is very confusing. I'm so sorry. I didn't realise that. So from now on I will spell my words out properly. There is also another problem with my blog. I don't check for spelling errors. That I know...Sometimes I just lazy to do a spelling check.. But I'll start. I thank everyone for your comments especially the constructive ones.

Anyway, my work place is getting worse. A meeting was held the last Friday where my senior lecturers were scolded by one of the other colleagues. This other person is a self claimed general manager for the tourism department. How can he scold them?

Some of my other colleagues are actually leaving..Good for them because the management gives them a very difficult time. I might be leaving too..I've been job hunting for the last week. Its very daunting. I guess I was lucky to be offered a job at this college right after my graduation. Now that I am finally looking for a job, I realised how far behind I am. It doesn't really matter what your qualification. Everyone seems to be asking for the same thing- experience- something that I don't have. I have never worked before in my life. This is my first job ever. It is a good experience because it opens up my eyes as to the range of persons that I will be dealing with. At this point I realised that 'people' are the most difficult to deal with. I don't know who I'm facing and everyday I face different people.

Now I'm going to find for jobs again...